Direction

Birthdays are good. They are good because they tend to make you think about the past and the future. So needless to say that is what i have been doing today. But today i am not looking in the past. Today i am looking at the future. What do i want to be doing in the next year? What goals do i want to set for myself? I started thinking even more about this when i just got a talking to from my boss. He did yell at me for not "letting him know" i was taking vacation time ( i thought the had heard me talking about it and i gave him my time sheet a few days early) but then he talked to me about direction. He doesn't want me to be sitting in this chair all my life. He wants me to take control and not just sit here and wait for things to come to me. He said that i need to get involved in something, make something mine. He doesn't know how right he is. All through my past i have just let things come to me. I don't want any more of my life to be wasted. I have friends that are doing amazing things with their lifes. They are helping others and making wonderful ripples in the community. What am i doing? Fixing computer errors that are forgetten about until the next one. This isn't my passion. No matter how much i try to tell myself that this is my passion, it isn't. I don't know what my passion is yet but i need to figure it out. Maybe i will get lucky and it will just come to me but i don't think it will this time. I think i need to go and look for it myself, i need to go to it. Well...i am off to start looking.